This is a blog I never thought I would write. Everything had been going so well this week but in the end it has felt like a big knock down. It is probably a reality check.
I have said many times before that I have a goal. I am not drinking alcohol in 2017 except for our trip to Ireland next week and our holiday in the summer.
With Ireland fast looming, I have really pushed myself in the gym and stuck to my healthy eating so I can try and get ahead ready for the trip.
I have been to the gym every day this week and had a PT session with Phil in which we did something different. I found it tough but I know from the MyZone stats that I pushed myself harder than before.
I also went spinning again on Friday morning. When I first started spinning, I struggled to do the whole class. 6 weeks later and I can do it all, no stopping (except when my glasses flew off!) and no cheating by not increasing resistance which hill climbing.
There have been 2 instances this week that have knocked me, really knocked me. On Thursday for work I had to attend an exhibition. I had a suit in my wardrobe I had not worn in ages as it didn’t fit. I tried it on Thursday and it fitted (or I thought it did), I went to the exhibition and upon trying to exit my car, the trousers spilt right down the leg! I was devastated.
Previously I would never have shared this picture through total embarrassment but the only way I am going to get to my goal is to be honest with myself. Going from the elation of being able to get in the suit again to this was difficult. I didn’t handle it very well as Sam will testify to. I was truly devastated.
Then came knock number 2. An even bigger knock. Even writing this now I am holding back tears.
Before my spin class on Friday I went for a weigh in. I am sure you can guess the outcome! I have put weight on. 1kg to be exact in 2 weeks. The moment I saw the scales my heart sank and I just wanted to cry. All that hard work for nothing. The machine the use also measures Body Fat % and Muscle mass. If there any silver lining here it is that my body fat did drop and my muscle mass increase. This is a positive but I want to lose weight, not put it on.
I don’t know why this is. People have said to me that it is a positive and I am going the right way and my body fat is reducing. Is it because I am not eating enough calories so my body not burning fat quick enough.
Whatever the reason I can tell you I have stuck to everything and not deviated. I still am devastated.
After these weigh in, the easy thing to do would have been to go home feeling sorry for myself, but that would achieve nothing. I picked myself up as best I could and went spinning and gave it everything, then I went home feeling sorry for myself.
As I am writing this I am sat in my Caravan. I have really been struggling to pick myself up from this but yesterday something happened.
As Sam and I were leaving the club, a lady stopped me and said, “is your name Hannigan?”
Obviously, we confirmed this and she went on to say that she had been reading this blog and told me to keep going. This is a lady I have never met and to be honest had I comprehended what she was saying at the time I would have said a lot more to her.
I hope I see her again soon as that one incident has really cheered me up and sorted my head out.
So, to finish this week’s installment, A quick note to this lady:
I really appreciate your kind comments. It has really picked me up after a bad week and put me back on track. I owe you a drink when I next see you. Thank You.
Until Next Time…
